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I’m only dreaming April 4, 2007

Filed under: Attachment Parenting,Breastfeeding,Julian,Mothering — amygeekgrl @ 4:53 pm

I’ve been having a lot of bizarre dreams lately. Several have involved me leaving Julian somewhere without any expressed breast milk or any way of feeding him. It freaks me out!

In one dream (the first in this series), I left him in a parked car(!) in a parking garage, while I went to an amusement park! After spending a few hours at the park I remembered he was in there and I rushed back to the car to find him crying his head off. I could hear his cries as I tried to get to him. What an awful feeling. I remember thinking in my dream that I had hoped someone called the police so that he was at least being taken care of.

I dreamt last night that I went away to someplace tropical for a night with some friends. I left Julian with my mom. While I was at the resort, I realized that I hadn’t brought a breast pump or anything to store milk in while I was there. And then I realized that I hadn’t left any milk for him at home! I called my mom and could hear Julian crying and it was, again, just awful. I told her I’d leave and be home in 3 hours, but I knew he’d be upset that whole time waiting for me. 😦

What’s up with these crazy dreams? Perhaps I have some subconscious fear that I will leave him behind?? Ugh, they leave me feeling so unsettled. I hope I can find a way to stop them from recurring.


8 Responses to “I’m only dreaming”

  1. Sounds stressful!! One of these days the reason will click. Post when it does! 🙂

  2. amamasblog Says:

    Sorry about those- I hate dreams like those, but believe there is something to dreams- I once saw a really good dream interpreter on Oprah, and she said to interpert dreams, everything is a symbol. Playing armchair interpreter, if you figure out what breastmilk means to you (nourishment, life, sense of accomplishment, etc.) and then look at it like you are afraid of being with out that, that may give you a bigger picture of why you are dreaming your specific dream. Maybe you aren’t afraid of being without breastmilk- but whatever the breastmilk means to you. 🙂

  3. amamasblog Says:

    I looked up my fav. dream interpertation site, and this is what it said about crying/hungry babies, and seeing someone else cry:

    To dream of a crying baby, is indicative of a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs some nurturing. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life.

    To dream about a starving baby, represents your dependence on others. You are experiencing some deficiency in your life that needs immediate attention and gratification.

    To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.

    Pretty interesting- look up milk, nursing, and breast too if you get a chance.

    To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.

  4. antropologa Says:

    That’s scary. I hate that sick feeling from bad dreams. I had one last night. Just try to take it as a sign that you are appropriately concerned about your son’s nourishment and welfare. Is he taking a bottle better? If not, you may be worried about that. You could always keep formula in the house for emergencies if that would make you feel better.

  5. Sarah Says:

    I wasnt sure where to email you but wanted you to see this

  6. K Says:

    i’ve been having very very REAL and strange dreams of late as well. Some anxiety in there, too, tho often just bizarre. They’ve been too real for me and i wake up feeling very odd. So i know what you mean! Just keep doin’ the right things during your awake time. We can’t control our dreams, Amy. *HUGS*

  7. leighsteele Says:

    I think this dreams are totally normal and such an amazing way for our mind to expand our awareness.
    Perhaps the dreams are simply just a way of manifesting the sometimes difficult transition and balance of being a new mama (again)…of wanting to partake in activities for YOU but also be there to nourish and support your family.
    Either way, we all know you’d never do any of the things you dramed about, so you can at least rest easy there. 🙂
    My pregnancy dreams have been absolutely wild…

  8. amygeekgrl Says:

    thank you all for your thoughts on this. thankfully i haven’t had another one like this yet, but i think a lot of the stuff amamasblog posted about makes a great deal of sense regarding where i’m at right now. lots to think about.

    sarah – thanks for that link. i actually saw it over on ‘the lactivist’ blog a cpl weeks ago. very interesting. perhaps i’ll blog about it someday. perhaps not. i wish i had time to blog about all of the things in my head. 😉

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